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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I always seem to wait to long

Well time flies by way to fast. There have been a few things on my mind that I am going to chat about today. I say chat as if I actually talking to someone. :) Anyways, I have this theory, which of course is one of many, but I always say moms don't get more than one day off. And it always holds true in my situation. Friday I started to feel yucky and by Friday night I was in bad shape, but still had to take care of Samantha because she was up crying & screaming. So by 5:45 am and being up for like 3 hours we finally got to sleep. But lo and behold I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a truck and like I didn't know which way was up! My mom was already here graciously to help me. Anyways after a full day of resting on Saturday I was back to being mom and Pastor by Sunday afternoon and still not feeling 100%. To making a full course meal Monday evening. All I could do was laugh.

Well yesterday Jay wasn't feeling well and by the evening was going out of commission. Samantha started a fever and by midnight was up screaming. She then proceed to think it was morning time and like she wanted to play. I decided to embrace the moment and enjoy her. She can move stars with her eyes and smile. Needless to say I was woken up by her screaming and saying ouch, thinking Jay may have swine flu, and realizing I was in over my head. By 7 am I was feeding one baby, calling doctors offices to get appointments, calling my mom to come in, father in law saying Jay wasnt coming into work and I'd be late, washed bottles and got Isaac stuff ready and Micah wanting me to just hang with him. Once my mom got here I was able to go into full gear. By 11:30 I had done a full days work and thought how the heck do single moms do this.

There are moments I feel guilty for not holding Isaac as much as I should and rushing through life. Moments I feel guilty like I am shafting Micah & Samantha for time they need by working, but in the end I can only do my best. I survived the day and was even able to hang out with some friends for dinner, but would have never been able to get it done without my mom. And I should mentioned this is the second time in the last month that Jay has gotten more than one day of rest when not feeling well. :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

What more can I say.

There are days that I have went through the whole day and at the end of the day I wonder what really happened today. I am a mom of 3 kids under the age of 5, I work pretty much full time with my husband and live every day differently than the one before.

I have started this blog simply to document my tears, fears and triumphs as a parent. I think my experiences can ring truth and pull at the strings of most mothers. While my life situations are different there is one common thread - our children who are at the heart of most of what we do. This blog will be an honest one. True to who I am and nothing less. You will find errors in my grammar, parenting, and life choices - BUT if it was any other way it wouldn't be me~ Jesus, my husband, and children are my life

My hope is that as I blog you will be able to identify with my tears, fears, & triumphs and in that find that there is hope and light at the end whatever season you are in.

Me.